Monotonousity- Is that even a word?

Life is so monotonous- my routine work lunch work come home and the next it repeats.
Nothing exciting has been happening - Well when did it ever happen.
Yesterday my old crush came to the office and the crush was freshen again - oh so beautiful crush- he is so cute for some reason! and then that's all I need I guess to get down-
for some pathetic reason I get all highschoolish-- im so sad
anyways yeh so back to what I was saying-
Hold on- one thing though I wait for something like that to happen but when it does I dont know how to handle it. Yes I made a fool out of myself. But when it comes to me what else is new. Oh well.
So yeh NOW- I dont like routines- work home sleep work home - I want an adventure- My co-worker is going to a Native Reserve site (sorry if its called something else) and helping out with different stuff. That's exciting.
But back to the crush thing- I get down cuz I know why my reasons of not approaching him - Ahh society and even religion sometimes ties you to norms that just leave you resentful.

Hopefully exciting times are yet to come.